so my class had to attend a career talk and we were prepared to sleep in the airconditioned surau with the old parrot-like school counsellor screeches .POP comes this reli small and round lady. awww...we smiled and thought O,FUN!

it started out reli bad as she didnt wanna use a mic. fussy woman. anyway, made us sit fer a half an hour Holland test to pinpoint our personalities and to see what careers fit us best.

it turned out reli funny as there was only ONE person who fell into the analytical category! harhar! and MOST OF MY CLASSMATES were in the artistic category (d'oh~), a reli small group of convensional ppl(boo-ring) , seven sosialites ( N-ice), two sexy mechanics (hoots*), and one expertise extrodinaire~( ka^ching )! hahahah! the extrodinaire bit was obviously not part of the word but its pointing at ME! heck, i noe self praise is reli not much of a real praise~cant help it!

so when we were separated into our own designated groups i was alone with Beatrice(analytical) and two sexy mechanics Maydeline(best gurlfren) and Norjaya. such a small lil group yet we were the loudest and noisiest bunch! hahahah! the lady who wanted to be called Kak then proceed to explain all about the Holland test and our personalities.

i cant possibly remember all the details but i am described as a very demanding person, loves to give orders, strong character, money minded, hard outside yet a softie inside and i'm best as a politician, lawyer or hotel manager. i was surprised. accurate. bullzeye!the whole class was goin :" 'tul...'tul...*meanin = true true*" the lady then asked a whole lotta questions like : " are u into business? have u worked? where and how do u like it? "

i felt very small... sitting in front of everyone letting them know my dreams. i feel tht it should be left fer me to dream or fer me to tell only my close buds. exposing my dreams made it seem so plain... its magical effects gone. but now it seems so much more realistic and in reach. can i truly achieve this ambition?

she made us draw a symbol and three words tht represent ourselves. hehe! i wanted to draw a pig then i thot of a devil but both dun seem right either. so i drew an angel with each hand holding a bag of money and a chest of love. and on its halo, honesty.hmm.. the last student,Sakinah explained her symbols and then bawled out the part where her symbol was a hand praying. she prays for a happy family. we all felt so sad, knowing that she lost her mom and her dad married again and she was truly like Cinderella, only worst. never welcomed in her home and her left leg a little shorter than her right, labeled a disabled.

so the career session evolved n students spoke softly about problems and i admit, me n May had bigger family problems yet we rather comfort others than talk.Kak made us understand tht this is the final and last time where we frens are going to be together. theres just no way we're ever goin to be all together like this after form five.we all quickly hugged and kissed cheeks. gosh, all of us ended up crying. i'm really close with all my classmates except for Mel and Nette(names hv been changed). two of them are like... not in my good books la.so i didnt touch them and later, i got an sms from Mel wondering why are we now enemies. i mentally retorted, who sed i'm ur enemy?! i'm just not ur fren! gosh , if u were my enemy, you wudnt even be still WONDERING! just like Nette.tht one is definitely not wondering. she got enuff hell from me. i just couldnt be bothered wit Mel n her attitude.it irritates me. so y make myself feel irritated right? so i just shut off all contact.

now i'm just worried. worried about a very good fren of mine. in fact, the best fren i've got. i hope all goes well as soon as possible. take care n lotsa luv. :)