green faced and gonna vomit~*

hehehe! i'm sitting fer my TRIALS tomorrow and...i've not studied fer the last two days. whoops~ actually, i did it to unwind la.
the last six days had been extremely stressful...i feel like falling to the ground and sleeeep~ i've been so called 'encouraged' by threee teachers and i fought with two students(verbally) and i had a major misunderstanding with my mom. other than that, i was in a 'dun talk to me, i'm not listening and if you force me to, i'll bite' mood. so i was left in peace to drift in and out of studying and dreaming.
school schedule is reaarranged to make us study AT LEAST five subjects per morning,TWO subjects per afternoon fer extra classes, then there is ONE subject in the night(private tuition), at night? if i'm in the RAJIN mood,i'll read sastera as i stink in it ; not in the RAJIN mood? sleep and wake up at dawn to do sums then sleep again till five forty five am. wad a life~ i meant it sarcastically.
though i'm not AT ALL ready fer trials, i dun feel AT ALL nervous. u noe wad my PA teacher sed? " your school is mad. thats why they drove you mad. so mad until they patah your semangat. now you dun have the spirit to do your exams well." i thought about it and was leftin confusion. my tuition mates heartily agreed. i have weekly, monthly and term exams. yeah...i no longer feel the twinge of excitement or my heart pounding in my ears.

Exams = tomoro? sure... i'm immune. bring it on~ Yawnzzz.*goes back to sleep*

there goes our 'beloved' headmistress! hip hip hurray!

orite...i'm not that bad! but yeah~ she's poof! gone! waaahahah! it was still a sad event no doubt. here we are, all shivering in fear and anticipation for the new headmistress. will she be another tyrant or a sweet o'lady? this is my future we're talking about!

my dad is getting my a "classic mini land cruiser". Quoted directly from his mouth. hahah! i dun reli care wad car he gets me, just give me a car!

i spent some time thinking , once again, about the past and future. in many ways, i've changed from the past. both mentally and physically. made more friends and less enemies. more patient and mature.

i'm rambling.....

i feel down now.... yea....like down in the gutters. haaahaa.

my trademark *according to most of my friends* : keeping a constant chatter and a light mood. i just keep crapping/talking with the company and laugh alot. in bad situations, i often try to lighten it as i am uncomfortable with tension sizzling.

i guess it is ALOT harder to do that online... maybe nearly impossible.

i'm growing used to it. i've given up on the four lettered word two years ago. it came back this year anyway, and once again, i crashed and burned. i came so close to telling the guy i've loved for so long three times! and each time, fate puts me down firmly. He tells me 'good news'. and i congratulate him. again and again. then i'm left with the second best choice which i half heartedly pick up. i guess i dun think : " i'd rather have all of him or none at all.". i'm more of a : " if i cant have him, i'll something close to him." at least i'm satisfied a bit fer a while than to go empty fer that period of time.

Now I can see things for what they really are, i guess i'm not that far... i'm at the point of no return.

wad a way to end this rather pleasant Saturday.... i got to know that i have been chosen for National Service.

sighs.... now, the after spm holiday doesnt look good at all! in fact! there isnt a holiday at all! a break of two weeks! thats it! wad d hell!? i really feel like asking the people in charge to participate as a normal youth in this program for three months, just after one month of SPM, and see if they 'enjoy' it or not!

its not that i wanna look at the glass half empty, i can see it half full too! but my point is : must gurls go for NS!?

heck! we have read articles about gurls being molested and raped! and strange illnesses!? deaths!? ohmygosh! its like being sent to deaths' door!

the wind was reli cold and strong and the Lincoln ship bobbed up and down the choppy waves. the salty sea breeze was beginning to coat all of the vehicles and humans in a coat of sticky layer of salt. along with my dad and thirty other men, we waited from eight thirty till eleven pm for immigration and port clearance for the ship docking n unloading. i was constantly checking all the drivers and lorries, makin' sure they knew the system and drill. prepping them on the procedures as it is their first time.

at long last! they lowered the New Zealand flags and blared the horn. the cranes on the ship began to move and sailors shouted out orders while we waited yet again. after another hour...it was midnight before all was ready for continous unloading. dad was still snoozing in the car as he was darn tired. the first JPHS lorry loaded and we gave a huge relief-sigh. bring it on~

finally! we started sending out the vets to check the cattles and goats. as the lorries began to load the nervous animals, winds started to pick up and soon the Livestock Express was stressing the rope tied around the bullard. Steve, our NewZealand agent was getting worried and made the unloading even more faster. soon, forty cattle and goats are unloaded into 2 ton lorries each time. we were to check each animal for the tag, species, default and gender to reload into specific lorries, taking photoes. getting clearance once more at the gate and at three ten am,in the midst of a heavy downpour, we were finally and truly free!

" lapar kah? boss lapar la...mari, pergi makan!" dad bellowed.

what a sight. Lorries, animals, and men surrounded the 24hr curry house. all of us drank coffee-o and teh-tarik, ate roti canai by the piles and loads of naan bread along with tandoori chicken. o yeah, we smelt bad of ammonia.... ahahahah! the bill was hilarious! it cost more than two hundred! omigosh!

o and wad a sad way to end this interesting day? check it out.... NATIONAL SERVICE. there goes my badly needed holiday. no TV or HP. say hello to mozzy and noisy ppl. grrr.....


Semakan Pelatih untuk Siri 4/2007

No KP 890328******
Nama FONG JIA-LERK
Negeri WP KL

bleurgh! i'm sleepy~ nites...zZZZ .. will blog all abt my opinion on it later~

Annoying Things To Do In An Elevator


1) STAND silent and motionless in the corner facing the wall without getting off.
2) MEOW occasionally.
3) STARE At another passenger for a while. Then announce in horror: "You're one of THEM" - and back away slowly
4) SAY -DING at each floor.
5) SAY "I wonder what all these do?" And push all the red buttons.
6) MAKE explosion noises when anyone presses a button.
7) STARE, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce: "I have new socks on."
8) DRAW a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers: "This is my personal space."
9) WHEN there's only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder, then pretend it wasn't you.
10) ASK if you can push the button for other people but push the wrong ones.
11) DROP a pen and wail until someone reaches to help pick it up, then scream: "That's mine!"
12) CALL out "Group hug! Yay!" then enforce it.

a dash of feminine undastanding + plants

Sunday was such a looong day, yet long as it was, it was still pleasant. but it was slow la!

anyway, instead of getting my sufficient (according to my standard : full ten hours)sleep , my dad came and attempted to talk me awake. wrong move~

then he tried to pull the comforter away. ok...he aggiteted me a lil. finally he switched the fan off and tried to wake me by tickling and yanking the comforter away. o well.. i have yet to see him fail in this particular expertise.

i gave up~ reluctantly opened up my swollen eyes and stared at him. he was laughing triumphantly while talking me into the idea of accompanying him to the Tamparuli morning market!? o gosh~ " yeayea~ i will.... *falls back to sleep*...hmm..i will la..."

" WAKE UP, SLEEPY PIG! HAIYO!"
" ok ok...i'm up, i'm up."

wearing a brown T-shirt and faded jeans, i was convinced that i looked like a local gurl. i decided not to wear earrings and went fresh faced - okie..i wore lip balm. and i went with only a wallet (not a purse!). W-O-W... this is record breaking! i've nvr thot i cud look decent wit this kinda attire! wahahahaha!

maybe i would have been better off being in my usual bright and stylish attire. heck! the locals were wearing sarongs and other kinda tradisional clothes... and i look like the younger generation tht just discovered wads jeans. and there were three ah-mo-lang ( orang putih) that asked me and dad about local information, they probably thot we were really locals! hahahah! success!

sumthing kinda obsession kinda got my dad - plants. yea... he bought so many of them. in fact the house is overflowing with plants! and in the farm? dun bother asking, just imagine a gazillion~ and for fun, he sold sum of it to other residents and friends...*groans* i got myself a simple plant tho... its obviously green but its flowers come in two colours... the main cluster is white while the one in the middle is like a cherry seed, red in colur tho.

had a conversation with Ben the day before and it was reli embarrassing to tell him that guys are such pigs. but he sed : "arses". made me realise, i made a mistake, tht except for those rare few MALE humans, guys are real arseholes. then on Sunday nite, called again. its comforting to know that i still have a guy best fren to talk to. and most of all, guys with a sarcastic and still very entertaining mouth and brain *nudge nudge* are hard to come by. WHERE ON EARTH DID THEY GO MAN!? EXTINCT?! WASTED! and those rare and special few? they are wad they are and wad other ppl think of the gurl's guys - still manly but with a dash of feminine understandin and a whole lot of heart and personality. thank God...i thot i'll nvr meet them. Count your blessings...i did. i'm thankful alredi...

roll in mud~

i see red... unsure if its suppose to be hate or anger or disappointment. i cant make up my mind..who cares? i think its all three.

guys are pigs. they are..or most of them are. selfish and puggish. self-centred and down right low. haughty and cowardly. and the famous title they hold is : two faced bastards. in ur face , they say : " i love u, i'll be here alwez, and ur the only one."

lies. lies . LIES. ALL LIES.

maybe i'm just gullible. naive. stupid. watever. its silly to cry over spilt milk, i know. but, another part of me still wonders so many : " why? why did it have to be like this?! " " could it end a another way? " " how can he be like that?" ... the painful list of questions goes forever on. tears stains appear on my electric blue pillow case.

i knew this year is critical. for my future. for my family. and to my own pride and confidence. i knew i wasnt suppose to go into a relationship. knowing that it'll be like this sum how. distracting me from my goal. yet, i still went after wad i wanted deep down inside. HIM. and he made it fall apart... with lies.

like i sed, guys are pigs. most of them actually, but save for those blessed special few. ur my old gud buds?

then yea, ur THE blessed and rare few guys that arent pigs. but piglets. ...sweet and cute. ...prefer tht? no?! go roll in mud, man.

THREE gurls , ONE guy and a doggy topic

it was HILARIOUS..... i gotta noe Mei Peng recently and had a chat with her along with Ben and Yun together in a chatroom. it's a short version but still quite original.....HAHAHAH! the doggy part is actually a gift Yun thot of buyin Ben and she spreads the idea.

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
awake yet jia?

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
who owes who and who owes wad?!

y u n w a y n e ;;
your cute little pink fluffy soft toy doggy which I promised two years ago

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
"kill benny ben ben day"?

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
i wudnt dream of killin u darlin

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
"diss/insult/tease/torture benny ben ben day"?

y u n w a y n e ;;
i could get a cat if you oh-so-prefer-

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
dog lover=kai

--:: me peNg ::--
hahah

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
not... soft toys

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
meiping can get u one?

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
yun will get u one

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
=.=''

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
and i'll get u one too

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
DONT GIVE ANYONE IDEAS!!!

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
i DID NOT want it THIS WAY

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
which way do u prefer?

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
pink my arse

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
ur arse is pink!?

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
u actually check out ur own butt!?

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
i'm like being... gang banged

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
sick (points at jia) sick (points at yun) buggers

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
if i'm not wrong

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
this is only the beginning

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
knowing Charlotte Fong Jia Lerk...

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
why is it alwez me first?!

y u n w a y n e ;;
i lose right at the moment he opens his mouth

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
imagine 3 of me

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
there'll be three maggots

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
on my kitchen tile

--:: me peNg ::--
total lost

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
dun wory bennie will update u kan?

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
charlotte *warning*

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
i sense something

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
brewing

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
i know u're smiling

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
*innocent n confused* WAD?!

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
wickedly

--:: me peNg ::--
update me??? like he will

y u n w a y n e ;;
lol

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
stop that smile n laugh u have

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
ahyooo ben ben ben

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
hheheheheheh

y u n w a y n e ;;
lol

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
*creeps away*

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
i can predict what's happening all the way at sabah

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
u're still smiling

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
ooooo

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
voodoooo

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
and laughing

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
eeeee

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
damn u!

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
scarie ler

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
u eat ok?

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
yes mom

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
gudnite sweeite

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
nite nite

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
ciao

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
psst......!

Oº°‘¨ dGhoSTinMe ‘°ºO
maggot!

•TJK911• "Schizophrenic"
=.=''


thanks fer watching " three gurls, one guy and a doggy topic" . the end. *applause*

in the midst of a very hectic year, surprisingly, i found quite a few moments that reli do soothe the frayed ends of my days.

• i found the fun of reading books again, to my parent's utmost displeasure. i dun mean text books or reference books, i meant books like...reader's digest, science fiction and chic lit. but that 'fun' didnt last too long... my parents banned me from the state library. PERFECT! how blurdie purrrfect man...
• calls from my good and true friends once in a blue moon or on special occasions. it really warms the heart and it makes life alot brighter...even for a little while. but still, i cherished EVERY call and word.
• the RAREST would be hanging out with frens! this WHOLE year~ i probably hung out less then TEN times! how sad is that?! i can say that i had only two memorable outing... and both in KL~with Ben and Wai..... fun farnie fantastic. *smiles and roll eyes*
• and recently....TIRAMISU! or Lucky! he's a fierce lil teddybear looking miniature dog! heheheh! his the size of my two palms. but sadly, he ain't toilet trained yet....argh!!! i stepped on poo this morning! but he relieves me of stress a little while everyday. sweetie~

today has been a lil nostalgic kinda feeling. class was slow and boring. thought about the gud'o'days. it was great u noe? not much stress or worries, no family or financial problems, no guy problems and definitely no skewl problems!

these days, i dun smile much. there's nothing much to smile about. if i smile, it would be a formal and polite one to the teacher or when forced to with friends and family. haihz... it's like living a lie..but this is not wad i do all the time. i wanna laugh heartily once again. i reli do. but we all dun crap like we do last time. we dun laugh cuz there is hardly time to when buried six feet deep with homework and preparations for monthly tests and exams and the SPM. and even if we're done, exhaustion overtakes. i guess i have to be strong for another four months. just a mere four months seem so far away. football is my happy hour for now. haahaa! i cant believe Brazil lost. the worst lost is Portugal. gosh....how dissappointing....

my sweet.... and yummy(according to Kai n Wai) Tiramisu! i admit : i still dunno wad breed is he... wahahaha!