March 25, 2007

hanging by a thread

somehow i've lost it... the spark for blogging. not that nothing is goin on in my life.... its more like... there is not much of it going the way i thought it would be. i think i'll never forget the happiness i felt coming home after NS, then the utter devastation upon uncovering my own SPM results no.. i didnt fail anything~CHILL~hahah! ,and undergoing super education couseling+lecture+dissappointment from dad. gah....

ever since obtaining my SPM slip, days just go by more mechanically than last time. though i'm reli dissappointed, i still thank God that i didnt fail ANY subjects... all credit n above but.. i'm just so bluddy not-ready for such a result....

then there is the forever troubling matter in hand... or rather in mind~.... on relationships. is there truly a problem with an interacial relationship? there are so many couples in Msia as well as around the world who have no problem being with a partner of different religion. i admit, yes! am in a rather early relationship with a guy who is a malay, whom i call Tousa. hahah! just for the fun of it... it nearly sounds like his own name~ teeheez.
those who found out by themselves, told me straight in the face, "how can u date him? he's a malay!" believe me, i was so pissed then. it wasnt like he tried to discourage me from christianity... instead he was the one who encouraged me to overcome my shyness to give praise in public and reminded me to pray+worship even more. i know we've talked it out but still, we cant just ignore how ppl view n treat us right? life isnt as perfect as it seems in story books... yea, there they can just block the world out n live happily ever after.
though we just only started off, after getting to know each other over a very eventful three months in national service, we already are feeling alot of the... descrimnation? what is the real problem people have about a chinese/malay relationship? religion? tradition or just not the trend? hahaha! mind boggling stuff when it comes to odd human behaviour! hahahaha!
here's the totals thus far:-
number of people : 17+4
problem with religion : 8+1 *w-o-w!
problem with tradition : 2 *haha! expected more!
problem with parents : 4 *bon jovi was wrong in "its my life"
no problems at all : 3+3 *the world needs more of these kinda ppl~
as more people tell me about their views, i'll keep updating. thanks ya'all for ur advise and erm...great opinions.


2 comments:

charlotte said...

this is where u guys can just tell me what u guys think abt it... the sky is the limit~ no profanities tho~ haha! thx!

Anonymous said...

so only the guys are allowed to comment? haha! just playing around your "u guys can just..."
i think its a bit sensitive in Malaysia.. so keep it on the low. haha! not that you cant, but for you, pretty hard! hahha.
i'm not thinking tradtion or religion... i'm thinking communication. and though its not banned of dating the other religion, what do u think of the malays viewing you as a chinese? think about it.. or rather, ask him or your friends.

dont hate me but, why not keep life simple? "simplicity is best" dont find complications in life.