lmt edt: NS graduate!

“I dun reli feel like goin home now….” I sobbed unto my friend’s shoulder at the farewell ceremony in the NS training camp. All of us were feeling all super-sad and was hugging, saying our goodbyes and taking pictures.

honestly, now that NS is truly over and done with, i can see that i've actually enjoyed it,not forgetting surviving it. now i can say i've gone thru it all and yea... no regrets. met a couple of great frens amidst three hundred and fifty trainees and shared a whole lot of new experiences. no doubt a time i'll nvr forget. i'm not forgetting the crush i got plus the dedicated team of trainers. though it was a tough n gruelling seventy days, somehow i found a bit of fun to retain my sanity.. and came back..alive!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhHHHH!

and to answer the very famous question i seem to be endlessly shot at- " hv u lost any weight?" ....the answer is "yes lah! seven kilogrammes! r u happy? no.. its not a joke! reli!"

i enjoyed the churchie moments... open discussions by Mr Kumar, his singing (and our giggling) and what he shared with us made us reli think n changed. met loads of my brothers n sisters in Christ there n we kinda got to know each other alot better then.plus the worship n sermon n fellowship in Rhema Community Church was both great n touching. A BIG THANK U, GOD! n those involved! the performance we did on the last Sunday was quite impressive.. we did our own singing and band in a day! hope they loved it as much as we did! woot!

and believe it or not... i joined a dancing team. sure ... hahah! laugh! which was later called ASL (Akademi Sri Ledang) by Ah Loong! I MISS U AH LOONG! as well as the other dear members of ASL! i had major fun learning a bit of every cultural dance ...starting from Zapin Johor, Sarawak, Sabah, Chinese, Indian and... if not mistaken Jawa? hahah! then learnt a whole dance of.. Hindustan dance moves! hahah! i admit it was hilarious that i even thought of joining this team at first but after a while, i totally changed my mindset about it. though i consider myself a pretty decent party dancer and very appreciative of a variety of music, group dancing is kinda new to me. so yeah, another experience worth savouring. thru this, i learnt to reli control my temper n patience, laugh at my own mistakes rather then to attack at it, and the most fun part of all? teach people to un-kayu themselves! hehehe! u dun get it? nvm... its an inside joke then. plus the opportunity to wear Malay traditional costumes, along with the make up n hairdo, my own Chinese Samfu, and indian dress! hahah! totally fun! the amazing buds i made are Priscilla, Firdaus, Iskandar,Andrew,Xue Loon, Mei Fern,Melbert,Azreen and Shahril! they're all amazing people.

the classes we attended was.... Character Building(!?) classes for the first month. it was a tiny wee bit childish but i reluctantly admit that it was blardy effective in making most of us more positive n confident in ourselves as well as others. then we learnt about kenegaraan(patriotism , ithink). it isnt something i thought i would look forward to but after the first class, i was totally hooked. i have always been interested in organisational works like in the company or the bigger picture - a government. then there was a part where we talk about politics which was probably my favourite to see the going-ons in it. in that class, i became frens with Zai (since the first CB class), Qadeer, Zaid, Sam, XueLoon, Via, and Oasis. in many a debate-able topics, i found a fast fren in Zaid who shares a similiar past with me. and a secret which i'm surprised i shared with him about trust and countries... if he had joined his skewl debate team, gosh... they wud be unbeatable! he's reli gifted la! Plus he became one of the candidates of our very own SriLedang parliment. and i thought he should have won... lost by three votes! as his official supporter, yeah... i was frustrated. super duper frustrated at tht.... gah! but i'm sure in real life, he'll do pretty well~

being in Delta Cobra was quite a curse at the beginning, losing repeatedly with the reason of not being united, stressed caused by the jurulatihs... haha! but then things turned around for us.. and emerging exactly the same points with the current champion - Bravo but to break the tally,lost due to some reason of them having more gold victories than us. hmmmph! ... *meow!* dont wanna fight over petty matters now. honestly, i think we Cobra's went thru the worst during camp. we were picked on, punished,looked downed and jeered at the beginning but in the middle of it all, we were on the top battling with Bravo. not forgetting our ally - Charlie! together we jumped on Alpha who was the mighty one at first. heheh... okie.. i sound darn evil. SORRY! but yeah, love u all Delta guys n gals! muax! in this company, i met loads of frens... but only some were meant fer keeping.and something happened thru this three months... it gave me a wake-up-to-reality call on how the real world works. *trust and racism issues seems to be on top of the list.

i cant seem to round-up all the stuff i went thru in NS but.. i admit.. i cried on the first night i was there. i became very dependent on my bible and handphone. when they took away my handphone, i turned to my diary n bible. sounds pathetic to u? well, yea...i was alone and i think thts a valid excuse! hahah! then after a few days, i forced myself unto the battle field and made frens. it kinda worked a lil too easily. i guess everyone else was rushing doing the same thing - making frens. somehow i started off with more malay frens then only did i make frens with the chinese ones.... odd huh? ah well~ another confession to make! yes! i had a crush! only a few people saw thru me and guessed it right... the rest of them are still guessing. heehee! a hint : he's not chinese. yeah, the minute they heard that, they were like, " what!? charlotte! NO!" geez la... i did say it was a crush right!? its not like i fell head-over-heels in love! hahah!

finding best friends or sisterhood between me, Hui Min,Fang, Wai Lan, n Xiao Jing was just a God sent! hahah! since there are sooo many kinds of personalities within this group... emotions fly man! one minute we're laughing, then we're screaming, then we'll be yelling, after tht...munching then back to giggling.... gosh... wad a crazy bunch. LUrvE U'aLL!

oddly... i dun reli miss NS too much. and reli, the whole program would have been a COMPLETE waste if it werent for frens and the M16 programme. hehe! so it was worth while ALL becuz of the frens we made. definitely not becuz we were to learn about discipline and to learn how to serve our country better! bleurgh! OMG! wad a bummer! i left my camera card reader at home in KL! SHYT............ i guess i have to wait till i get it posted over here in Sabah... yea. i'm stuck here. hahahaha!