i've always been called impulsive. i know that too. though it happened nearly two months back, i cant stop regretting it. then only did i realise just how impulsive i can be. what i did is wrong but it seemed okay at that moment la. thats wad basically hacking my mind right now.

i wrote an eassay for my second trials entitled : beauty. out of all the choices, simple choices , i had to choose that one right? sighs... the essay probably steered towards aneroxic and the fashion industry. makes me worry alot about getting lower marks for the english paper. yea, i'm the queen of kiasu-ness in english examinations. i'm crowned and i seriously don wanna lose it anytime soon. tee hee.

about the first paragraph. when i reli think throughly, i cant seem to find a friend i can reli talk to face to face right now. yea... i have friends. plenty of them. i have gud friends. a handful. i have best friends. just a sprinkle. yet there are certain degrees of intimacy tht can be shared among best friends. still, the best friend i reli need is across the ocean. i guess we have sumthing that i've nvr had with my other best buds. i guess i do trust him. he proved alot. not that i dun trust the others. maybe in due time. just maybe.

i do blame myself for what happenned. maybe being a youth and an adult altogether stinks. i'll be online a whole lot less now....SPM looming ahead. arounf the riverbend. the corner. wadever.